Beginnings of my spiritual journey Pt. 1

OK, so I decided to start a blog cuz a lot of friends, family and coworkers are asking me everyday about my upcoming journey. So, they all want to know why I am going, how I am doing it and when I am leaving. So let me start on the why I am going. But before that let me say that I am hoping to get a lot of followers. This blog thing is new for me, but I figure I'm gonna have a lot of stories and I might as well get used to blogging now. OK so as you see the ADHD kicked in and I went off on a tangent. So, back to my story. Why I decided to go to India and Argentina. Well, I've always wanted to live out side of the country (USA) and see what it is like being somewhere else; but why now? Well, I am 35 years old and have been in a series of relationships but still single. I could say they were bad but really they weren't. I think everything I have been through has been to lead me to make this decision to travel. I have met some great people, but they were not ready to commit. As I had to do work on myself, I realized I was not ready to commit so I attracted men who were not ready to commit. This gave me an excuse to focus externally, get mad at them and now focus on myself. Stay tuned for my book on relationships. At the end of my last relationship (last summer 2008) was when I decided to leave this country. I was so in love all though I never told him, but when he broke up with me I knew something had to change. I keep entering the same type of relationships with the same endings. The definition of insanity is "doing the same thing over and over and expecting new results". I said it is time for me to stop this insanity. The leaving the country is more so that I can stop, sit back and exam myself. Figure out who I really am and what I am looking for. Sure I can do that here, but why when the world is so huge and there is so much out there to learn and to see. At the same time that I was going through my relationship stuff, I was going through slow spiritual growth. I am a very anxious person who can not sit still. My friends know that I always have like 3 jobs, travel all the time and still have time to hang out with them. They always say "I don't know how you do it". Truth be told, I don't know either. (Is it ok to bring the IM/chatting lingo into blogs? I hope so). Focus Renee Marie. So back to being anxious....I know being here I can not instill the discipline I need to sit quietly and be introspective. Oh, I was going to bring up meditation. So I started looking into relaxation techniques to help me learn how to relax. That is when I decided to look into meditation. At first, I bought a book on how to meditate, but I didn't get very far with that because I wasn't disciplined enough to do it on my own everyday. So, I started looking for places I could go to for meditation(free of course since I wanted to try and do it everyday and that would get expensive). So the free places I found were Buddhist centers. Lo and behold I started visiting 3 Buddhist centers. I finally settled on 2 that I went to fairly often. Eventually I took refuge and became Buddhist. In addition, I learned Reiki and started doing yoga. So all of these spiritual things made we want to grow more spiritually which led me to decide to go to India. This and the fact that I read Eat, Pray, Love. Reading about Elizabeth Gilbert's stay in an Ashram made we want to have that experience. Well I am going to the Black woman's version of Eat, Pray, Love. Stay tuned for that book too. So, why Argentina? A coworker of mine would always say this joke to me when I go to work in such a great Indian accent even though he is from Iran. "You are going to India to find yourself , then you are going to Argentina to find a man" Hey, not bad if that happens. So why Argentina? Well I have to say for 2 reasons: the Argentine accent and the beef! I want to learn spanish and I want to have the Argentine accent. Stay tuned for how I will accomplish this trip, where I will be staying, etc. I plan to continue this blog with videos, pictures and more stories for my family and friends to share in my story.